Dear Oskar, my precious darling September 11th, 2005
I have so much to tell you. I haven't been a good mother for you
in the past two years and I'm sorry. But I want you to know
that I love you, Oskar. I love you more than anything else and
you will always be my most beloved person.
I know it's hard to cope with the loss of your father, he was such
a caring person and when he died it felt like a bond that connected
him and me was broken and I still miss him.
I tried to give you the same feelings as Thomas did and tried to
afford you the life that is worth enough for you but I don't think
it worked. I met people in a group that also have lost family and
there I met Ron. I know you don't like him but I need him.